Saturday, January 23, 2010

Role Play

Friends...My first baby will come out soon in 2 weeks....now he is on full term in his mother's womb and really enjoying the warmth,love and protection of his mother.We are eagerly waiting for that moment...the prize of god for our love...A CHILD....

In this situation i am thinking about the roles we are playing in our life.First i was a baby and wandering for the love and protection of others ...i got it those from my grand parents,the most influenced persons in my life is my grandfather and grandma (achachan and mattama in my language) .These 2 persons moulded my attitude and everything.I got the first lesson of unconditional love from my grandma and the first lesson of professionalism from my grandfather.

Second as a teenager who struggled to find a place of his own and felt cut his wings by the sword of comparison in academic performance.Those days were the most hatred days of my life,nobody wants to listen me and no body knows what gives happiness to me.Obviously i labelled as a stupid,and i too behaved like that only,no responsibilities that time,i was with my local friends all time and did so many stupid thinks (really enjoying those thoughts now),we drank too much,smoked too much,some stupid things we did were not appropriate to write here so i am censoring that.But i had an inner fire to succeed in life and i realized that after some years... and then no look back.

Third as a young man....Great life... i got a good job in cochin after my studies and life rocked there.I learned from my past mistakes and lived for my happiness. Cochin is a great city for me and it gave me the career break as an engineer after my graduation, gave me my soulmate,got a different vision to life by met krishnamani mam(one of the greatest personalities i met ever),the city has a lot of scope to become next metro in India and i love that thought,Its evening is very beautiful.

Fourth as a lover...i too laughed very much and felt most happiness that time..when i am in love to my soul mate before our marriage.Those morning and evening was specially devoted to her only,i forgot my work,my career,everything that time,only love in my mind..mad with love.

Fifth as a husband....vow...what a change to life,we got somebody to love as our own and i am loving her more than me.Our ways are changed to accommodate this new person in our life and we have no secret in our life,we are feeling some divine presence in our life when we love each other unconditionally.That is a better life i think so.I am getting the love i needed for my life going and i feel she is the most precious gift from god.

And now as a father of a boy...i am transformed to act as a father now,and i am feeling the love to my child.I don't know how it will change my life but one thing is sure my child's life should be totally different from my childhood days...it should be weaved in love only......I LOVE YOU MY SON...COME SOON TO MY HAND....